A powerful memoir on womanhood by RNZ presenter Susie Ferguson Early in her radio career Susie Ferguson became a war correspondent. The only woman among hundreds of soldiers, in a helmet and flak jacket she was one of the boys. None of them knew she was taking fifteen painkillers a day and relying on opioids to stem the burning and stabbing pain in her uterus.

Even bloody-minded grit couldn't have prepared Susie for womanhood. More than your body's betrayal, it's the vicious bullying only girls can do. It's waiting years for surgery because your pain doesn't matter. It's the threat of violence in countries where a woman is either property or the spoils of war. It's going overnight from a high-powered career to a stay-at-home mum. It's the doctor who says you're wasting his time. But it is also friendship, love and having the strength to carry on - and to do it smiling. 'A story of grit and determination from a woman who writes the way she lives - fiercely, with passion and in full colour' Michele A'Court

'If you've ever wanted to eyeball a doctor and demand the treatment you need and deserve, this is the book for you' Lotta Dann, bestselling author of Mrs D Is Going Without and The Wine O'Clock Myth

© 2024 HarperAudio (Audiobook): 9781460738498

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Audiobook: 2 October 2024